Saturday, December 31, 2011

The Last Day of 2011

So....what to write on the last day of the year?


I have already mused on resolutions, so I am not going to talk about that.

It is hard to know what to write about with all the things going through my (sick) head right now. And by "sick", I mean I am fighting a cold and the flu - although some may argue that I am a little sick in the head. LOL

But in all seriousness, it is a day of introspection, of reflection, of some hesitation even.

A new year begins tomorrow!

That is both exciting and scary. It is a fresh start and what with resolutions and goals and all the things that come with that, it is kinda daunting.

2011 has been a good year for me.

I have been at home raising my three boys.

My sweeties!

I started this blog and have been sharing more of my writing with the world. This has been huge for me. Perhaps not for you - I realize - but as I have said - if it makes YOUR life richer, more fulfilled, more authentic, than it is most definitely a good thing (Martha would probably agree!)

There are things I want to stop doing in the new year. There are things I want to start doing in the new year. Some you already know about if you are a faithful reader. Some you don't - some are quite personal.

And it scares me because I am VERY hard on myself. I guess that is one of the things I want to stop doing in the new year. That is, being so frickin hard on me.

I want to be the perfect mother, the perfect wife, the perfect daughter, the perfect sister, the perfect friend, the perfect writer, the perfect blogger, the perfect eater, the perfect work-outer (the perfect word-smith....which I obviously am not...I like to make up words!), get the picture.

I know I am and never will be any of these things.

"Who are you callin' "not perfect"? Oh...that was me. Carry on...

I need to strive to be a "good enough" mother, wife, la la la.

I need to recognize that "good enough", is, in fact, good enough.

My best is all I can be...and I am not always going to be at my best. No one can. We have our good days and our bad. And that is good enough.

That's right!

Some people ask me how I "do it all!!!???!!!?"

Well peeps...I'm gonna tell ya.

I don't.

Yes, I am busy. Yes, I have three active, homework, baby, la la la. I also have this blog. I also write otherwise. I do some work for a non-profit. I try to maintain balance - and Lordy-Lord I struggle.

But I get help.

A great deal of help.

I didn't even have to hang up a sign.

My boys are good boys. my husband is a good husband. My parents are good parents. My mother-in-law is a good mother-in-law (really...she is!). If I didn't have these amazing people in my life I just may be flying over the cuckoo's nest right now.

Oh yes I do!!!! usual...I digress.

2012 is going to be a good year. My family has had ups and downs like every other family, but we are relatively healthy and supportive of each other. People who don't have these things...well...I certainly don't know how THEY do it all. And to them I say, "May angels hold you tightly in their wings."

So on this last day of 2011, I will simply leave you all with this:

“Another fresh new year is here . . .
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”

 - William Arthur Ward

Happy New Year and all the best for 2012!



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