As I have told you all before, I am scheduled to go to Mexico at the end of May of this year.
|The Mayan Riviera. |
Ready or not, here I come.
One of my besties - Sarah - is getting remarried and was kind enough to ask me to be her Matron of Honour.
|Yup...that's me with the bride!|
I was thrilled!
I am still thrilled!
But a few things are in my head that are putting a little damper on my "thrillness".
First of all: that dress!
Second of all: that bathing suit!
Third of all: those 2 skinny bridesmaids!
I can deal with a beautiful bride as I know Sarah will be.
But I am stressing large about...well...my "largeness".
I know, I know. There are many more significant problems to worry about than how I will look in my dress and in a bathing suit on my 5-star, all-inclusive vacation to a tropical paradise.
I know, I know. Play the violins. Poor, frickin me!
|Oh shuddup dude!|
But I am just being honest. I am just voicing my frustration with myself.
I am just confessing my...well...vain-ness I guess.
I have always taken pride in trying to look my very best for special occasions like this. And guess what?
I am running out of time to look my best.
|Get it? Running? Time? OK. Lame.|
I have been trying, but of course I know I have not been trying hard enough.
I also know what you are probably thinking.
|This is you thinking. Don't drop that thought!|
"Don't be so hard on yourself Lora. You look great. You have so much on your plate. You are doing your best. La la la."
And I appreciate those of you who are thinking these things.
But really, I am tired of my frickin excuses.
I don't have time to work out. I deserve to eat treats at the end of a long day. I have 3 active boys. One of those boys is a baby. 2 of those boys play hockey. 1 of those hockey players is in competitive hockey that takes up a ton of my time. I write a lot. I go to the gym a lot lately. La la la.
|Yes Demi. La la la.|
I'm in la la land.
All frickin excuses for not doing my best. And I say this because I know it is true.
I know what doing my best feels like and I have not been doing it.
I have been doing better than before...which is a good start - yes.
But I need to kick it up a notch!
And this is not all about Mexico.
But that is the thing I am currently freaking out about. That is the date I am working towards because I can't exactly walk around in my ass-covering parka like I can here in Canada.
|I am not smiling because I am wearing a frickin' parka in Mexico!|
I have to admit - I just have trouble truly enjoying myself when I feel I look like crap and that is not how I want to feel on my much needed vacation. My very expensive vacation. My vacation that I can't delay because I am going there for a wedding. Fat or not fat, I am going and I will look however I look.
I am just wondering something.
Does Spanx have a line of swim wear?
|Apparently they do. Yay!|
Later! I'm going shopping!
I understand :P I'm trying to quit smoking; I have before, I know I can, I've seriously went through quit date after quit date.. it's in the air ok? OR it's because we each have three children and it's a miracle we still have hair (I mean instead of pulling it out?)....that's all...I understand... just drink.. lolReplyDelete
Lora, Lora, Lora... You are just plain crazy! You are looking great and I think you look fantastic in your dress! I share though in your stress... Time sure is a tickin' and I still want to drop 10 before the wedding... At least get rid of that bulge that poofed up over the top of my dress that I have no clue where the hell it came from!!! But I digress. What means the most to me is that you are coming to the wedding and that you'll be standing next to me supporting me on one of the happiest days of my life... I know it's expensive... I know my other gals are skinny... I know our parkas won't fly in Mexico. What I also know is that I love you, no matter what you look like or what you wear. Lora, don't stress and have some chocolate.... I'll join you on that! It's time to celebrate after all!ReplyDelete
Sarah, Lora, just remember, I will always love you just the way you are! Congrats on the wedding, have fun ladies....xoReplyDelete