As I have told you all before, I am scheduled to go to Mexico at the end of May of this year.
|The Mayan Riviera. |
Ready or not, here I come.
One of my besties - Sarah - is getting remarried and was kind enough to ask me to be her Matron of Honour.
|Yup...that's me with the bride!|
I was thrilled!
I am still thrilled!
But a few things are in my head that are putting a little damper on my "thrillness".
First of all: that dress!
Second of all: that bathing suit!
Third of all: those 2 skinny bridesmaids!
I can deal with a beautiful bride as I know Sarah will be.
But I am stressing large about...well...my "largeness".
I know, I know. There are many more significant problems to worry about than how I will look in my dress and in a bathing suit on my 5-star, all-inclusive vacation to a tropical paradise.
I know, I know. Play the violins. Poor, frickin me!
|Oh shuddup dude!|
But I am just being honest. I am just voicing my frustration with myself.
I am just confessing my...well...vain-ness I guess.
I have always taken pride in trying to look my very best for special occasions like this. And guess what?
I am running out of time to look my best.
|Get it? Running? Time? OK. Lame.|
I have been trying, but of course I know I have not been trying hard enough.
I also know what you are probably thinking.
|This is you thinking. Don't drop that thought!|
"Don't be so hard on yourself Lora. You look great. You have so much on your plate. You are doing your best. La la la."
And I appreciate those of you who are thinking these things.
But really, I am tired of my frickin excuses.
I don't have time to work out. I deserve to eat treats at the end of a long day. I have 3 active boys. One of those boys is a baby. 2 of those boys play hockey. 1 of those hockey players is in competitive hockey that takes up a ton of my time. I write a lot. I go to the gym a lot lately. La la la.
|Yes Demi. La la la.|
I'm in la la land.
All frickin excuses for not doing my best. And I say this because I know it is true.
I know what doing my best feels like and I have not been doing it.
I have been doing better than before...which is a good start - yes.
But I need to kick it up a notch!
And this is not all about Mexico.
But that is the thing I am currently freaking out about. That is the date I am working towards because I can't exactly walk around in my ass-covering parka like I can here in Canada.
|I am not smiling because I am wearing a frickin' parka in Mexico!|
I have to admit - I just have trouble truly enjoying myself when I feel I look like crap and that is not how I want to feel on my much needed vacation. My very expensive vacation. My vacation that I can't delay because I am going there for a wedding. Fat or not fat, I am going and I will look however I look.
I am just wondering something.
Does Spanx have a line of swim wear?
|Apparently they do. Yay!|
Later! I'm going shopping!