I'm Tired of Being Tired

It seems as though I am tired all of the time.

Dare to dream.
Oh...I will take that dare!
I dream of getting more sleep.
But it is kinda hard to dream if you are not sleeping.
I am tired just thinking about it!

I'm tired when I go to bed.

I'm tired when I get up in the night because I can't sleep.

I'm tired in the morning when I rise.

Yup.

I'm tired all day.

Maybe it's all the weed guys!

And I am tired of being tired!

I photo shopped out the toothpicks holding my eyes open!

It is rather tiring!

I mean, I get it. I'm a busy mom. All moms are tired to a certain degree. I know I am not alone here.

See? Here's another tired mom.

Part of my problem, I think, is that I can't quiet my mind enough to get much proper sleep. Ya know, that good, deep REM stuff that rejuvenates your body.

No, not the band REM.
And thanks Mr. Stipe. I appreciate the offer of a hug, but what I need are some Zzzzzzzzs.

I think a lot of the sleep that I do get is the lighter stuff...what I like to call "surface sleep". Sure, I am sleeping, but am I getting proper rest?

Me in the morning. OK, she is younger, but we have a similar hair colour!

Apparently not.

I photo shopped out the toothpicks once again. They looked a little creepy.
Actually, this pic of me still looks a little creepy.
Maybe I should get more sleep!

I have a baby which does not help matters. He wakes up in the night and I think my body has gotten used to "sleeping with one ear and one eye open". Since I became a mother over ten years ago, I have become a very light sleeper.

When I do get the opportunity to rest, I always feel as though I should or could be doing something more "productive" - as if getting proper rest is not worth my time.

Mother guilt kicks in. I have laundry to do and food to prepare and phone calls to make and shopping to do and cleaning to get done and jobs to apply for and writing to do and yadda, yadda, yadda.

It is that "yadda, yadda, yadda" in my head that won't shut the frick up!

And so, of late, I have been getting sick. In fact, I am sick right now. And I am here writing instead of sleeping.

Sometimes the justification I use is that if I get enough done first, I will be better able to sleep with the knowledge that some of the to dos on my list have been crossed off.

And so...now this blog post is done. It is certainly not my finest work, but I am gonna let go of the guilt and get my ass into bed.

This is exactly how I look while I sleep.
Ha!

Because I'm tired of being tired.

See...the toothpicks popped out and I can hardly keep my eyes open!

Short post. Sorry...it is my son's birthday...and I just finished running around getting all of the prep ready for when he gets home from school. I should feel guilty if I didn't do my annual 'birthday after-school surprise' horse and pony show! It's tradition!

Not bad for a tired, sick mom!

And so now...even though this blog post kinds sucks as I said...I am gonna take a nap.


Smiles,

Lora