Saturday, December 29, 2012

2012 Reflections - Part 1

Well, it's that time of year again peeps!

Another calendar year is coming to a close and a natural reaction to that is to reflect.

'Deep Thoughts' with...a polar bear.

So reflect I shall!

2012 has been a pretty crazy year.

On the outside looking in, it may seem as though my year has been fairly non-productive...and on a bad day, I would agree with that.

But when I really take a step back, I know that all things that happen in life are steps forward...even if they seem or feel ass-backwards...or steps taken on a hamster wheel. Not going anywhere...not doing much of anything.

I spent all of 2012 at home...tending to my three boys...spending countless hours at hockey rinks, helping with homework, changing diapers, singing along to The Wiggles and not doing nearly enough for me.

I. Am. So. Sick. Of. The. Frickin. Wiggles.

One thing I have discovered upon this particular reflection is that this HAS to stop.

I turned the big 4-0 this year and I was all high and mighty about reinventing myself.

And since my birthday in mid-September, my high and mightiness quite swiftly became more low and mousiness.

Why are things not moving along like I thought they would?!!?

What exactly does that mean?

Well...I am still trying to figure that out. But I am getting somewhere.

I knew I wanted to get back into the full-time work force outside of the home. Freelance writing and blogging has been a wonderful experience that I plan to continue...but being at home more often than not is just not good for me and my particular personality.

So I got started on my plan...but my plan has been taking me much longer than expected and is still a work in progress.

One thing I did is I committed to starting my little guy Drew (who turned 2 in October) in Montessori school.

My Drew-Boo

No, we could - and still can't - afford it...but it became very clear that my sanity is more valuable than money...and luckily, certain loved ones agreed with me. With blessings from family (thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!), we were able to start him in September when my older sons started back at school.

I am VERY pleased with the results of this change thus far.

While drop-off in the morning is still a little rough, Drew is learning a lot, being socialized with other kids of many ages and after the 5 minutes of drop-off crying stops, he is really enjoying it.

So...goal #1 accomplished!

To be continued...



1 comment:

  1. Ok, so I have been reading the Book - The Road Less Traveled - a New Psychology of Love, Values and Spiritual Growth...and have been learning A Lot of important things from it that you would LOVE. - Check your Facebook Email in a bit - sent you the audible version as a gift :) - Feeling stuck, I understand - the understanding of the solution is kind of magical and comes from the will of breaking fears. Joy and pain are closely linked - and required breakthroughs are the key to that feeling you are looking for. I hope you enjoy the audio version. We have the book but it is 25 years old - and tough to get this 1st edition in hard copy now. if you can - I recommend it. Talk soon :)