"Writing about a writer's block is better than not writing at all."
- Charles Bukowski
(The Last Night of the Earth Poems)
I am at a loss for words.
I know, right?
|Dudes! I am as dumbfounded as you are!|
At. A. Loss. For. Words.
A rarity, I realize.
And I am trying to figure out why.
I mean...I kinda figured that a several-months-long blogging hiatus coupled with a lot of major changes in my personal life would be fodder for a veritable explosion of bloggitude!
|This is what an explosion of bloggitude looks like.|
In case you were wondering.
And I know you were.
And all I seem to be coming up with...are words like "bloggitude" that don't even exist.
Perhaps I am in shock.
Maybe I need more time.
I could be so overwhelmed by everything that is in my head that it has rendered me frozen.
But the thing is...I know it's in there.
I can feel the need to get stuff out...to purge...to express...to share...
I guess...I just don't know where the frick to start.
Where does one start when life as one knows it completely changes in so many ways?
I mean...if this blog is my story...then lemme tell ya peeps...this here...this is definitely the beginning of a new chapter.
In fact, I even pondered the idea of putting The Hugging Home to bed and starting something new.
But then I stopped to ponder that idea further.
And the it hit me.
Life is about change.
Doors close...windows open.
Ya fall down, ya gotta pick yourself up.
Rebuild. Redefine. Reinvent.
|Time to rebuild!|
In short...my story is not finished yet.
I may be in a different home...but it is still one full of hugs and love and all the things that are true and dear in my heart of hearts.
This is still The Hugging Home.
My family is not broken. It has simply (or not so simply) taken on a new form.
My husband - from whom I am now legally separated - is no longer my life partner - but he is still an important part of my life and always will be.
He is the father of my three, beautiful boys and we are learning by trial and error how to be successful co-parents and friends. As every couple who goes through the un-coupling process knows - especially when the partnership has been a long one (ours was 17 years) and involves children - it is about stumbling and tripping and figuring things out as you go along.
But I digress.
Because apparently I just stumbled - hem hem - upon a topic that would make a pretty good post all on it's own. In fact...it could probably be split into several. So I will leave it at that for now and make a mental note to continue on the topic later.
Ha! I'm coming back!
You see...I just decided to do what I have always done when mental block hits: JUST START WRITING.
And so I did.