Sunday, September 13, 2015

Conversations with Drew: #1

"Summer will end soon enough, and childhood as well."
 - George R. R. Martin (A Game of Thrones)

I few months ago I started to document the funny things that would come out of my 4 year old Drew's mouth - verbatim.

I shared many of these on Facebook and people seemed to enjoy - so I thought I would start a little series on here called "Conversations with Drew".

Drew is a rambunctious, curious, active, stubborn, independent-minded, loveable, cute little boy who is always asking why and always wondering about the world around him.

Luckily, like many little people, he likes to think out loud.

My Drew-Boo

I plan on documenting these on-going here on my blog, but I have to do a little catch-up first.

And so today…I present my first instalment of "Conversations with Drew".


August 3, 2015

Drew: Mama?
Me: Yes Drew?
Drew: When will I have hairy balls?
Me: Ask Daddy. 

August 6, 2015

Me: Drew, what animal are you looking forward to seeing the most at the zoo?
Drew: The little doggies.

Drew with big brother Julian at the zoo looking at
something a little more captivating than a little doggie.

August 12, 2015

Drew: I want to dream about being Spider-Man really badly. But I don't want to be him for real yet because the real suit is for big guys and I'm too little.



Falling Back into Place

"Be willing to be a beginner every single morning"

 - Meister Eckhart

Well here I am again.

Yes, yes, yes…I have taken a few days off.

OK…a break.

OK…a sabbatical.

OK…a few sabbaticals.

But life has been cray peeps…and sometimes things fall by the wayside when life gets in the way.

No more!

I'm back.

I know….AGAIN.

Here I am. Hello peeps!!!

I was thinking of starting a whole new blog. Ya know…starting fresh.

But I finally figured that you guys already know me from The Hugging Home. I already have over 400 fracking posts on here…and for the love of the baby Jesus it is a pain in the ass to get a new blog designed, because I kinda did try.

Eff it.

This is my home…my little Hugging Home…and it's where I have hopefully made you feel welcome and it is where I have found a comfortable little space in the blogosphere to share my thoughts and musings.

So you're stuck with me.

Unless you leave.

Or perhaps you have already left…in which case you are not reading this so you can just shove this whole post up your…

….as I was saying.

I need to write again. I am making it a priority again. I MISS MY BLOG PEEPS!

So…here is yet ANOTHER blog post that is basically saying "here I am again!"…and you are probably saying "like what, for another two spectacular posts and then you are going to go hang out under your fracking rock again?!??"

Fair enough.

But that is not the plan. I have really thought about this. Till my brain hurt.

That's a lot of thinking peeps.

So what am I gonna write about these days?

Well…if I TOLD you that wouldn't be very fun now would it?

Now just as an aside…I know that there are a bunch of broken links and shit left in this thing because I lost my original domain name because some lovely person (AKA: asshole…and that is being kind) bought it up after I let it expire when I was going though a major life crisis and tried to feel in back to me for $1000 because of the amount of traffic it had and I said "screw that shit" and then I had to change it and now things got kind of effed up but who the frick gives a shit really…if you are looking for something ad can't find it just ask me and I will try and find it for you…OK?

Oh man…I need to work on those run-on sentences. Oh…but wait. This is my fracking blog and I am kinda famous for those and I make my own rules here so shut up if you are the grammar police…I happen to be a card-carrying member as well and you don't see me arresting myself do you?

OK…so enough of the rambling.

OK…who am I kidding?

Quick update. My three boys are getting older. No they are not yet off at college but my eldest is in HIGH SCHOOL (I KNOW right?!?!?!??!?!!!) and my middle dude is in grade 6 and my little guy is in Senior Kindergarten. They are almost 14, 11 and almost 5.

Yes…while they are older, not much has changed.
Rock on!

I know.

I can't cope either.

Take a breath and let's let that sink in for a moment.

This is totally me breathing.
I know. I look fabulous.
And young.
Thank you for noticing.


As I have gone into before, I am no longer married...but I'm not single.

I have been in a relationship for over a year now and life is purdy darn good on that front. He's a pretty private guy and so I will not be sharing details of our daily routine, our sex life or any of that fabulous stuff with you. I'm sorry. I know you want the low-down but I must show some restraint. Just know he treats me well.

Oh you want a photo? OK. Just this once.

And…he's FINE!
Jealous much?

So when am I gonna start actually blogging again instead of just telling you that I am gonna start blogging again?

How about today?

And so we begin again…



Tuesday, February 10, 2015

She Was Everything Beautiful and Different

"At the center of your being you have the answer: 
you know who you are and you know what you want."
 - Lao Tzu

Sometimes one needs a break.

Sometimes one needs to shake things up…try new things…see what is working and what needs to change.

Over the past year, I…without any real intention…took several breaks from blogging.

Not because I no longer love to write. Not because I had nothing to write about.

I just had a lot to process in my life – and while writing has helped me to process many things in the past – for some reason, it just didn’t seem like the right time or place over the past little while.

So rather than forcing myself to churn out half-assed blog posts for the sake of keeping things rolling….I stopped for a good while.

I processed.

I made significant changes.

I transformed.

I lived.

And I am feeling great.

Looking...and feeling...happy and healthy!

Lots has happened over the past couple of years – some of which I have written about.

My marriage ended. I had a rebound relationship that in retrospect was not healthy and was just a way of filling a void.

I got quite sick and took time off work.

I decided it was time to finally take stock and put all of my energy into my health and well-being after taking care of others for so long.

I started see a doctor regularly. I took vitamins and supplements. I completely overhauled my diet. I started walking more. I lost a crap-load of weight. I ditched a few bad habits. I did a lot of introspective thinking. 

Then I started to feel better. I went out on a few dates. I went back to work. I met a wonderful man. I lost a special friend suddenly to a heart attack/car accident. I realized that I have a core group of solid, amazing, wonderful, supportive friends.

I have an even greater understanding and appreciation for the awesome family – my sons, my parents, my brothers, my sister-in-law, my niece and nephew – that I have.

I also have a much greater understanding of who I am as a person.

I’m sensitive. I’m quirky. I’m kind. I’m kooky. I’m intense. I’m gregarious. I’m bright. 

I'm classy, sassy and smart-assy.

My custom-made necklace says it all!

I am who I am…and no one is ever going to make me feel like I have to change the qualities that I…and many others…like about me.

(Part of my authentic self? Being driven nuts by those who don't know the difference between "your" and you're"!)

I realized that before I thought I had to fit into some sort of mold; to live up to someone else’s blueprint; to follow the life rules that I somehow thought were written in stone.

Now I know that there is no one like me and that I am pretty fracking awesome – just as most people are in their own ways. More importantly, I know that being myself – and only myself – is what makes me happy. Being anyone else is suffocating. It slowly sucks the life out of a person.

My true friends know and love who I am. My family knows and loves who I am. My boyfriend knows and loves who I am.

And best of all…I finally know and love who I am again. 

This is framed and hangs in my bedroom as a gentle reminder.

So I'm here to say that I am ready to write again. Maybe not as often as before...but I truly have missed it. Certain things may be different...because my life is so different...but as life shall this blog.

I will continue to try to be positive. I will continue to try to relay relatable happenings in my life as a mother (and now...a single mother). I will also continue to keep my relationship with my partner (my boyfriend) private and only refer to it in general terms. Some things are not for public consumption.

And of course...I will continue to try and keep you smiling. Because that is what I do.

That is who I am. 

It has been a while since I've been here.

But it feels good to be back!