Friday, September 09, 2016

The Fall...and Getting Up Again


"If all you can do is crawl, start crawling". 
- Rumi


OK, maybe I won't start by crawling on this path.
That could hurt. Especially my knee.
But grab the metaphor and move on.


So summer is officially over.

I mean, for parents like me.

It is currently 6:16 am on the Tuesday morning after Labour Day and to say this is a summer I am anxious to move forward and away from, it is this one.

I'm sitting up in my bed. I'm exhausted.

My boys are already wide awake and the excitement of the first day of school is apparent.

My 12 yr. old walking my 5 yr. old to his first day of grade one.
Another new beginning.


In fact, as I write this, two of my boys have descended upon my bed and are singing and wrestling and I don't even know why I am trying to write a blog post.

My broken leg is healing slowly but surely. It still makes me feel claustrophobic having this leg that just does not work the way I want it too.

I'm tired of crutches. I'm tired of doctors. I'm tired of feeling lightheaded and nauseous when I try to walk.

I'm so ready for this chapter to be over.

While it is now Fall…I am ready to get up again.

I'm ready to move forward…even if I have to crawl.



So I'm choosing to think of the start of this school year as a new beginning for me.

The kids got their new clothes and skates and school supplies.

I got comfortable shoes.

Goodbye heels, hello sensible flats.
For now.


I am preparing to go back to work at the end of this month. First on a graduated schedule and then within a month, full days.

I need to build up my endurance, but I think I'm ready.

I'm finally able to drive a car again. I can get myself to physiotherapy and doctors' appointments.

I stay alone at home when the kids are with their Dad…and I'm going to be starting to do overnights with my kids.

With three boys to get ready and off to school, this will be a challenge - but this whole ordeal has been a challenge, so what the hell?

This post took me a while to write. Not because it is earth-shatteringly profound (I think we can rule that out), but because it's been a busy week.

It is now the Friday morning (like early morning - about 4:30 am) and I'm already up writing.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe said "We must always change, renew, rejuvenate ourselves, otherwise we harden".

And I've been trying to do that.

A rather cheese ball  photo of a woman who is gonna let nothing stop her.
Sue me.


But soon I'll be walking.

Then running.

Then no one will be able to stop me.

Smiles,

Lora




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