"You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one."
- John Lennon
Always have been.
I daydream a lot and also literally have a lot of dreams when I sleep.
I'm also someone who sometimes thinks the impossible may somehow be possible and that perhaps the grass is greener on the other side.
At least I used to.
One thing I've learned of late is that the grass is greenest where you water it. And I have a very healthy and lush lawn of gorgeous green grass and this metaphor is going a little off the rails.
What I'm trying to say is that life is not about things. Life is about people. Relationships. Love. Savouring experiences together even when times are tough.
I've always believed in this…however…I've been off kilter before.
Now….I have been to hell and back heath wise and it may seem like a cliche, but it really does have the ability to change your outlook on what is really important in life.
I have learned that I have some very serious and wonderful love in my life.
I have amazing parents who I love to the moon and back and who have been by my side always, always, always.
Then there are my brothers who know somewhat of what I suffer and who have amazing shoulders to lean on as always.
Then there's my boyfriend of over 4 years. He truly is both my lover and my best friend and that sounded kind if cheese-ball but it's true. He has been my rock during the last few rather shitty years of my life and he has never wavered. He can make me smile and laugh and reminds me why I should feel good about myself.
I got one of the good ones and I hope the universe blesses us with some years without so much drama and pain. In any case, I know my boyfriend will be there - as I will be for him - I hope…forever.
Then all my beautiful friends who have sent me messages of support and who have offered to help in any ways that they could. you really do find out who loves you in a crisis situation.
Last but not least there are my three, beautiful boys. Some days can be challenging - but I'm a single mom of three boys…what duh ya expect…paradise? Well, perhaps in a strange way…but with tones more noise, dirt and attitude.
In a nut-shell, I've learnt that life is about love. It's about people. It's about time.
And it's a very beautiful experience to realize these things with such focus and clarity.
I am one very, lucky gal.
Sometimes hardship has a silver lining.
This is mine.